I think it was many things. Yes she loved him and woud have liked to stay put. She would have loved to be the wife and mother she was trying to be. In the end the responce to the negitive test was sadness and relief. She couldn't run with a child. If she was caught she would loose the child. The realization that she may never get that chance because she knows she's not in the right place or even the right person to be a mom. I felt so bad for her.

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